Normally I'm grumpy in the morning. 🧟♀️🧟♀️🧟♀️
I used to be worried about that—I guess I wasn't super-aware of why I was worried, but it was probably because I felt it was unevolved. I should be happy! (Bah. Too much listening to Abe.)
I finally came to a place where I was accepting it. Just going with it. Letting myself be grumpy. Doing the things I needed to do to be myself.
But today I woke up in a GREAT mood! 🤩 🤩 🤩 That's even though I went to bed late last night and the kitty woke me up at 7:30 with her moaning for treats. I was actually singing while I did my kitty chores!
(Happy doing the morning poop scoop? What's going on around here? :-D
Setting Myself Up to Be Happy
Okay, so it wasn't a four-leaf clover. But I do feel lucky. Even though I "put myself in the way of happiness" so it wasn't luck. (If you've seen Wild you'll get the play on Bobbi's life motto.)
Yesterday I embarked on collating and writing 2019 The Master(ful) Plan.
This was not some MindValley-ish vision-board-y type pursuit. This is something I have to do. The signs are all there. In fact, the signs won't leave me alone. And the need is great.
So, yeah, I've been procrastinating. Sometimes dancing around the edges. Having all the usual yucker feelings about not getting on with it.
Yesterday, EVEN THOUGH I HAD A WRITING BINGE THAT LASTED TILL 1PM, I pulled my shit together and started the master plan. And got so far along with it I was able to ball up various pieces of yellow paper or tear-offs from To-Do pads and put them in the recycle bag. Got so far along with it I was able to print my plan from Reedsy to PDF. Got so far along with it I felt good about myself.
Starting the Day Right
Got so far along with it I said to myself "Tomorrow, no screenwriting with coffee."
"And tomorrow I'll have my shower BEFORE I drink coffee."
Major. Major. Rarely seen.
I actually pulled it off. Despite the rainy morning and the temptation to stay in my jammies for coffee time. Despite the weird special effort it takes to undress and dress in this apartment.
So, here I am, blogging on the Boonies! That's because I'm so far ahead of the game I can afford the creative time. And because I won't go into full-body immersion here like I would with Eleven.
(Seems crazy that I have to restrain myself from using my writing to procrastinate about other things.)
Other Things Bionic Woman Did Right Yesterday
I made a new Boonies entry! 😍😍😍😍😍
It had been a while and there was still only one entry on the entire blog. It felt great to push through the hassles (couldn't remember how to login) and get something written and posted. Along with that, I had a juicy brainstorm of a dozen ideas for future Boonies topics—that became a list of 21 by the time I finished this post. Which cleared a major block I was having with this venture ("What will I write about every day?").
💰💰💰 Listened to 5 hours of a YouTube video about wealth and money luck. It's supposed to be used while you sleep, but that's too unwieldy. I put my headphones on and then forgot it was playing. Hopefully that's a good way for bypassing conscious resistance.
Simultaneously listened to hours of the silent MP3 for client attraction by Z.
🐋🐋🐋 Meditated to Humpback Whale songs that has hypnotic elements added to the soundtrack.
Right now I'm playing OM Five Elements through my headphones. A good addition to the line-up and perfect for my creative time.
Lucky Clover Happenings
🦉🦉🦉 Got a sign from Owl to remind me that My days of trying too hard are over. If I will just make some effort toward my goals, whatever I put into it will be compounded by the Universe.
🦈 🦈 🦈 Got a sign from Shark to remind me that I should
Moreover, do anything to stir up the energy and create motion within yourself!
Shark also said
Stop dwelling on your weaknesses. Look at them from a different perspective so you can find strength in them. Everything you perceive as weak has its strong point with the Universe’s perfect balance. You can turn any weakness into one of your strengths.
These insights and reminders came with perfect timing and helped tremendously with my emotional state.
So, now, at 10:50AM, I'm feeling balanced. I'm showered and dressed. I'm having my precious morning creativity time. I have a plan for making progress with the things I've been avoiding. I'm excited about my plan. I have the whole day ahead of me for making progress.
💫💫💫 Which doesn't mean Star can't still have WILD TIME. A writing binge in her jammies when she knows C.G. should be working. A creative burst of journaling with stickers and colored markers that makes her feel so alive when she looks at it. A new adventure. An expedition to the beach that takes all day.
This means she can have it all.
🌟🌟🌟 But in the right Star measurements. And with the right happiness quotient.
With room for messing up. (Not Mrs. Perfect.)